The Thorn Birds

"There is a legend about a bird which sings just once in its life, more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the earth. From the moment it leaves the nest it searches for a thorn tree, and does not rest until it has found one. Then, singing among the savage branches, it impales itself upon the longest, sharpest spine. And, dying, it rises above its own agony to outcarol the lark and the nightingale. One superlative song, existence the price. But the whole world stills to listen, and God in His heaven smiles. For the best is only bought at the cost of great pain…. Or so says the legend."



- Sasaw Girl

Cebu

I am Much Too Alone in this World

I am much too alone in this world, yet not alone
enough
to truly consecrate the hour.
I am much too small in this world, yet not small
enough
to be to you just object and thing,
dark and smart.
I want my free will and want it accompanying
the path which leads to action;
and want during times that beg questions,
where something is up,
to be among those in the know,
or else be alone.

I want to mirror your image to its fullest perfection,
never be blind or too old
to uphold your weighty wavering reflection.
I want to unfold.
Nowhere I wish to stay crooked, bent;
for there I would be dishonest, untrue.
I want my conscience to be
true before you;
want to describe myself like a picture I observed
for a long time, one close up,
like a new word I learned and embraced,
like the everday jug,
like my mother’s face,
like a ship that carried me along
through the deadliest storm.

- anonymous -

I Just Noticed...

...that a friend of mine "treasures friendship as a God-given gift". That's exactly how I feel towards friends. But how come I was so caught up with things that I failed to notice that there are also others who see things like I do. Could I have been separated for too long? Then maybe it is true that "Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes."...

I am so missing my friends...



I hope I'm not missing out on them too much...

I Will Sing Of My Redeemer

(verse 1)
I will sing of my Redeemer
He who took the nails for me
I’ve been purchased, I’ve been pardoned
Bound to Him I’m truly free

(verse 2)
I will sing of my Redeemer
How He sought me while a slave
Loosed me from the curse of sin and
From the power of the grave

(chorus)
I will sing of my Redeemer
Lift my voice to praise my Lord
Ransomed by His blood and mercy
I am His forevermore

(verse 3)
I will sing of my Redeemer
He who bore my cross, my curse
Came a servant, chose to suffer
Lifted up and cast from earth

(verse 4)
I will sing of my Redeemer
Tell about the grace I’ve known
Here on earth with those forgiven
And one day around His throne


(listen here)

I Believe

I believe… When you are not with me there are no stars in the sky.
I believe… The way back to you will feel a little far.
I’ll carry all those memories deep inside me.
I’ll feel pain, it’ll make tears fall.
When I won’t cry you will leave me
With no change and no tears.
Someday again the tears will come around
You know it
I’ll believe that you are waiting.
I do it for you.
I believe… It’ll hurt me to see, you can’t cry.
I believe… My tears will fall, you should turn back to me again.
Again I’ll glimpse you come into my sight
And it’ll make my tears fall.
When I won’t cry you will leave me
With no change and no tears.
Someday again the tears will come around
You know it
I’ll believe that you are waiting.
I do it for you.
Before I knew you, the world was dazzling.
From that sky I got left with tears.
I will care for that person.
You are the only reason…
To me the wait gives me enough happiness.
Love is the only reason…
As days pass by,
If you forget the way, I’ll be waiting
I do it for you.
I do it for you.

When Pride Gets You...

-Ginny's Bulletin Post-



my most hated word is

PRIDE..

bCoz wen I have it..

- i always dont want 2 b d first to d d step 2 be with someone

- i always try 2 hide my feelings

- i dont want others 2 know that im hurt

- im afraid of letting sum1 know he's special

- im afraid 2 love sum1 whom i think cant love me back

- im so aware of what others think dat i cant do what i want

- im not happy

- and in the end, i lose everything without trying to have it...

-end of Ginny's post-

I certainly am missing my friends. But I think I'm too stuck up to admit it to them openly. I'm afraid of being rejected, I guess...

Happy Birthday Ate Day2x! ^_^

Today is September 17, 2008. My ate Dulce turns 27 today! hehe. I actually have two older sisters. The one celebrating her birthday today is the younger of the two. My ate Day2 is the "quirkier" of the two. She loves listening to music and she loves her friends and of course her family. She is currently working in a travel agency owned by my uncle. She loves her work since she gets to meet different types of people.

What I like most about my sister is that she is very thoughtful. Most of the time, she would bring back home donuts for me. And even though I do not ask, she gives me money as extra allowance. Since she is my sibling, it cannot be avoided that sometimes we end up quarreling over trivial things, especially when it comes to who uses the PC first. Sibling rivalry, as they would say. But even with the frequent skirmishes, I still love my ate. And she's tuning 27 now! Ate is old! And I'm getting older too. Hehe.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE DAY2x!

Diyandi Festival

Diyandi Festival is the official title for the Tourism month and Fiesta Celebration of Iligan City for the whole month of September.

One of the Highlights of the Diyandi Festival is the Kasadya Street Dancing Festival, this happens on the 27th on the streets of Iligan and end at the Anahaw Ampitheater. Also on the same day is the Miss Iligan which will follow at 7:00pm at the MSU IIT Gym.

The Feast of Saint Michael the Archangel is on the 29th.. and will be started with a procession of the image around the City starting at 7:00am and will end at the Cathedral after the procession around town.

Here below is the schedule of activities for the Diyandi Festival 2008

• Sept 5

6:00 Diyandi Festival Launching

7:00p.m. Search for Iligan Star- Season 2, Rizal Park

• Sept 7

5:30 p.m. Sangka sa Awit ug Sayaw, Public Plaza

• Sept 10

SUPERFERRY BIYAHENG BAYAN, Pala-o Supermarket

• Sept 12

6:00 p.m. Freeminds Band Concert (San Miguel Brewery)

• Sept 13

6:00 p.m. Search for Iligan Star – Season 2, Rizal Park

8:00 a.m. Motorcade Chemical Engineering Week

• Sept 14

5:30 p.m. Sangka sa Awit uf Sayaw, Public Plaza

• Sept 18

8:00 am- Jollibee motorcade

6:00 pm – RMN Drama, Rizal Park

• Sept 19

7:00a.m.-12:00noon PAMET Medical Mission, Rizal Park

6:30 p.m.-8:00pm IMCC Kapagintaw Cultural Dance Troupe, Rizal Park

• Sept 20

5:00 a.m. Daily Diana/Pamukaw

8:00 a.m. – PAGPAKANAUG, Cathedral

8:00a.m. – 5:00 p.m. – BSP Council Kawan Holiday, Rizal Park

8:00a.m. – 5 p.m. – Mindanao Wide Airsoft Tournament, Ludo Bldg, Bayug

1:30 p.m. – 5th Trisikad Racing Contest, Ludo Bldg., Cabili Avenue

6:00 p.m. – HALINGASA-HUNI ALANG KANG SAN MIGUEL YEAR 3, Anahaw Amphitheater

6:00 p.m. – Search for Iligan Star Season 2

7:30 p.m. – Ballroom Dancing, Ma. Cristina Hotel

8:00 p.m. – San Miguel Concert, Rizal Park

• Sept 21

5:00 A.M. – DAILY DIANA/PAMUKAW (Around City Streets)

8:00-12:00 noon Pinakurat Cooking Contest, Rizal Park

8a.m.-5p.m. - Mindanao Wide Air- soft Tour-nament, Ludo Bldg, Bayug

5:30p.m. –Sangka sa Awit ug Sayaw, PublicPlaza

6:00p.m. – RMN Street Party, Aguinaldo Street (Jollibee area)

7:00p.m. SEPTEMBER FEVER ILIGAN BIKINI FACE-OFF 2008,

BAT-C, Pala-o

• Sept 22

6:00 p.m.- HUDYAKA Cultural Show, MSU-IIT Gym

6:00 p.m. – RMN Drama, Rizal Park

• Sept 23

6:30 pm -8:00pm

IMCC Kapagintaw Cultural Dance Troupe, Rizal Park

7pm- Pasikatan, MSU-IIT Gym

• Sept 24

1:00 – 5:00 p.m.

Dula-Dula sa Fiesta, Rizal Park

6PM – MGA PASUNDAYAG SA LUDABI, Rizal Park

• Sept 25

Pambansang Seminar-Worksyap sa Filipino: Teorya at Praktika nang Pagtuturo ng Wika at Literatura , CED

6PM – Search for Iligan Star – Season 2, Rizal Park

7:00pm –Komedya, MSU-IIT gym

• Sept 26

7:00a.m Silent Drill Competition ICNHS Grounds

8:00am-9:00pm – Lady Boy Day, Rizal Park

7:00pm ANGHELAN

7:00p.m. –Little Mr. and Ms. Iligan, MSU-IIT IDS Multipurpose Hall

8:00a.m.-11pm

Dress/Technical Rehearsal, MSU-IIT Gym

7:00p.m.- Break It Off Dance Contest

Children’s Park, Brgy. San Miguel

• Sept 27

7:00 a.m. Kasadya Street Dancing City Streets

and Anahaw Amphitheatre

7:00 a.m.-Coastal Clean-up, Coastal barangays

6:00p.m. – Night Café, San Miguel Corp., Rizal Park

7:00 pm – Blast from the Past – Get on Ur Feet, Maria Cristina Hotel

7:30 p.m. – Miss Iligan, MSU-IIT Gym

• Sept 28

5:00 A.M. - DAILY DIANA/PAMUKAW

(AROUND CITY STREETS)

7:00 a.m. CIVIC MILITARY PARADE, ICNHS/

Rizal Park

7:00 p.m. Live and Loud Iligan 2008, Echiverri St. cor. QuezonAvenue

5:30 p.m.-Sangka sa Awit ug Sayaw

7:00p.m.-San Miguel Comedia, Rizal Park

• Sept 29

7:00 a.m. PROCESSION

FEAST OF ST. MICHAEL THE ARCH-ANGEL

2:00 – 7:00p.m Buhagay sa Fighter Wine 2008, Rizal Park

6:00 p.m. Kasadya Street Party, Quezon Avenue

• Sept 30

6:30 pm -8:00pm

IMCC Kapagintaw Cultural Dance Troupe, Rizal Park

7pm- Pasikatan, MSU-IIT Gym

SOURCE

Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Nativity of the Blessed Virgin Mary

Image of the Blessed Virgin Mary

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.
Amen.

Worried

I wonder how you're doing right now.


I hope you're well...


Get well soon, okay?

I Don't Know What To Say...

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart...

and can sing it back to you,

when you have forgotten the words..."

I Wish I Knew

what would happen if you knew,
what indifference is doing to me?

'cause in the wake of all the things
I wanted you to see.

what does it take for me to have,
again the things we shared?

the future that I'll choose depends,
on whether you really cared.

for what reason should I hope
upon promises that we made?

when it was you who seems to have
all of one's passion fade.

so now I really wish I knew.
I don't have any clue.

was it wrong for me to have
put all my trust on you?...

(By: Arvin Diao Miranda. Composed on the spot on August 30, 2008 at 00:20 a.m.)

GREEN LIGHT: Sir Joey's Reply

it all depends on you arvin..the best person to ask is yourself..

no one can weigh it better, no one can see it inside-out except yourself.

if you want my opinion though, i think you should dance..but, see to it that you won't compromise your studies.

u are good in both..means, your using your head in your studies and your two feet in dancing and not the other way around..

so, i believe a lil' involvement in PALAKASAN won't hurt. besides, such god-given talent should not be kept behind the stage..trust me, you wont like the feeling. it's like you have an itch on your back that you cannot scratch, no matter what you do..

so if you think that green light is comin', dance. but before you do, see to it that the music is ON..^_^

How Jesus Must Have Felt

God, thy will is hard,
But you hold every card.
I will drink your cup of poison.
Nail me to your cross and break me.
Bleed me, beat me.
Kill me. Take me, now!
Before I change my mind.

Quoting Naruto

...

when I'm with you...


I wonder...
If it's like being with a brother



for me...
It's one of the first bonds I've ever had


that's why...
I'll never give up

Give me the Strength

"The challenge for man is to accept the things he cannot change,
or to find the courage to change the things he can...."




In a closet without a lock,
which almost any seemingly nice person could access.

On the bottom shelve,
pushed away to the far left side.

There’s this cardboard box,
opened and empty.

Although not very protective to it’s contents,
the thin edges might still cut fingers
of her who opens the box too rapidly.

It only contains some thin, gray wrapping paper,
wrinkled, somewhat torn here and there,
for it has wrapped and unwrapped quite a few times.

My heart is missing, again.

She has taken it,
or maybe I gave it away,
in an absent state of mind.
I can’t even remember.

Can’t think of anyone who would want to steal it,
for it is in no way brand new,
it has it’s share of dents,
scratches and scars.

..


On top of a square column,
in a cube made out of glass,
lies her heart.

I look at it but can not see it clearly,
because the world’s reflections,
with me in it,
mirror from the glass.

I wonder if I could get it,
to have a closer look,
and if I’d like it, and it’d like me,
I might even take it.

I could hit and break the glass,
to quickly take it and run,
but pieces of glass would destroy it,
leaving me with nothing.

I could cut a hole in the cube,
to carefully take it out,
but the sharp edge could cut me deeply,
leaving me with nothing.

I could slowly lift the glass cube,
to try to pick it up gently,
but it could set off an alarm,
leaving me with nothing.

Perhaps only severe heat
from the hart itself
could melt the glass,
but will I still be there when that happens?

..

There on the floor,
I found my lost heart,
desperately jumping
up the side of the column.

It’s exhausted
and features new scratches.
Although it seems to be unwilling,
I pick it up to take it back home.

I’ll put it back in the closet,
bottom shelve,
far left,
in the cardboard box.

I think this time I’ll tape the box shut.

With duct tape.

- anonymous

Mark Lugtu's Forwarded Message

Ang amigo,
kinabuangan sa tnan!


dal-on kas
delikado!
magbuot pa jd kng
knsa imu trato!


ang migo, naa ra jd
dra bsag imung
awayun.


ubanan pka bsag
sa imung lungon.



Ang migo, bsag
pisteng animal
usahy, mski grb pa
imung pgmahay,
ang knahumanan,
sa iyaha ghpun ka
mkig TAGAY!



i dedicate this to my dear friends...

Some Friendly Advice

LitolDeal gave me this to try and cheer me up.



Thank you Deal! ^_^



I'll try my best but I'm not promising anything, OK?


I'll try...

I'll try...

Dance

Taken During The Opening Ceremony of the 2008 Olympic Games

Build Your Dream and Live It

Aim for the brightest future.

Search for it far and wide.

But don't forget to smile...

And just enjoy the journey.

And most of all...

Never forget to ALWAYS cherish your friends.

Even when they are far from you.

As Utol Ram said...


"Don't cry 'coz it ended but SMILE 'coz it HAPPENED"





With my best bro.

Pre-Birthday Gift

This was taken on August 2, 2008

So, Wadya Tink...? ^_^

Missing My Friend

I lost a part of me today ...
I don't think the pain will end.
The world is a lonelier place to be,
Without you in it, my friend.

The warmth that brought joy to all you met
The smile that lit up a room
The laughter that made everything seem all right
Have all been replaced ... silence ... gloom.

I won't say good bye, for we will meet again,
In my heart I know that is true.
For now, stay happy, loved and blessed.
While I, my dear friend ... miss you.

Kristine's Bulletin Post...

"it fils sad to mis sum1 badly..
especially wen both of u shared un4getble moments..

8s so sad not to fil d presnce of dat sum1..
it burns ur hart wd sch sadnes & longing..

wd ol dat burden ur goin thru,u tot ur sum1 also misses u..
but only 2 find out dat d sum1 u knew, was enjoyin' d tym w/o u :'c"

-from Kristine's textmate

I wanted to make a post to explain how much I relate to the message above. But even with all the hard thinking I did, words just wont come out. I can't think of anything. I'm quite sure of what to write about but I just can't find the right words that would perfectly describe what I'm feeling. Maybe it is true, that sometimes...

"words just aren't enough"...

Leave Out All The Rest

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taking my beating
I’ve shared what I made

I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

Hoping for a better day...

Woke up alone today. My sisters went to work and my mom went to attend a ceremony at my brother's school. Of course dad is overseas. So when I woke up today I was alone at home.

I don't really feel sad about it (right now that is).

But I would like my day to be "happier".
I'm done 'crying over spilled milk'.
So rather than dwell on my insecurities and pity myself for being alone, I'd ought to make the most out of my life.

I'm really hoping for a better day.

Though I admit, somewhere at the back of my mind, I still cherish those people. I still want to be with them. But I already made up my mind. What I'm wishing for is truly impossible. It will get me nowhere dwelling on those thoughts.


I hope for a better day. So I pray...

Finding It Hard Adjusting...

For such a short time being away, I wonder why everything feels so different. Everything seems to have changed.

I'm still finding it hard to revert back to the way I "used to be". I find it hard to do the things I used to do here. It seems harder to study and it's hard to excel. It seems that I have no good reason to do them anymore.


It seems much harder to talk to people. It seems even much harder to express myself to others.

It's hard when you got no one to listen to you.


Has everything really changed? Or is it me who changed?


I find it hard to smile nowadays. I know I'm not happy. For one, right now I can't be with the people whom I really want to be with.

My friends, I want you to know that I sorely miss all of you. It was with you that I felt that I truly belonged.

I sorely miss all of you. I really do...

I just hope that I am somehow missed by you too...

Hot Fuzz

"Hot Fuzz is a 2007 British action comedy film written by Simon Pegg and Edgar Wright and starring Simon Pegg and Nick Frost." - Wikipedia

I just saw this movie today. It was shown on HBO.
It's a very funny movie, but what made me feature it here in my blog is because I was somehow moved by the bond between the main character and his trusty friend. It amused me 'coz I now have a friend whom I think I share a similar bond with that in the movie.

I'm happy 'coz I have found my
"True Best Friend" a.k.a "Blood Brother"...
But I'm also sad 'coz we're geographically separate and there's nothing I can do about it.


Nonetheless, I'm happy to have my "Utol".
I wouldn't want it any other way.

found my drive...

It's nice to know that I have friends.

Not just ordinary friends, but REAL friends.

I now found my drive again.

It's really nice to know that they believe in me.

So I will do my best for them.

After all, I did make my promise. ^_^







(photobucket photo by rikusuka)

Jumper by Third Eye Blind

	Third Eye Blind - Jumper
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Lyrics:

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand

The angry boy a bit too insane

Icing over a secret pain

You know you don't belong

You're the first to fight

You're way too loud

You're the flash of light on a burial shroud

I know somethings wrong

Well everyone I know has got a reason

To say put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand

Well he's on the table and he's gone to code

And I do not think anyone knows

What they're doing here

And your friends have left you

You've been dismissed

I never thought it would come to this

And i, I want you to know

Everyones got to face down the demons

Maybe today

You could put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in

And if you do not want to see me again I would understand

I would understand

I would understand

I would understand

I would understand

I would understand

Understand

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can you put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

I would understand

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

I would understand

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

And I would understand

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

I would understand

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

I would understand